FION++

Well, don't know what to write exactly, just feel should write sth today, just cuz it is today. Maybe the title is enough.

If I am not talented, then have to experience and learn.

I don't often browse others' pics or blogs in my network but I am doing this these days. It's actually kinda amazing to see people I know, used to meet at some point in my life and doing the same things at that time, and now everyone is having different life, so different! different place around the world, doing different things, different life pace...really opens my eyes, and mind. hard to discribe the feeling, it s like I am able to see all kinds of possibilities of how my life could be.

 

All kinds of life could be enjoyable. My life might not be as fun as others, it probably not that sweet, not that peaceful, not that fluent and it definitely moving slowly... but I am able to experience more, feel more, learn more, know more... I am probably much luckier than most of others, I don't need to worry about a lot of things; I am doing what I like; I have most of my families alive and they love me soooo much; I have a lot of friends who care about me, like me, even love me; I have a lot of stuffs I love...and I did enjoy a lot in my age, I did most of things I could imagine, which is turning me to be emotional and logical.  anyway, mylife is...wired, hard, boring, busy, exciting, fun, sweet...all kinds! What can I say, lucky I am!

 

I don't have religion, not any kind of belief, don't even believe in myself sometimes. but now...maybe I got one...MY LIFE...my belief.  

hehe, i think I really like to write blogs in Eng cuz that probably means not a lot people are reading it and this is good sometimes. Say whatever I wanna say, just to get it off, haha. Nice!

Here, somethings I read or heard from others, like the way they are expressed and like their idea"

 

--Love is just for fun, so enjoy all kinds of relationship when you are young.

 

--Most of the things catching your attention now won't be important at all for your entire life, when you look back some day.

 

--A woman doesn't count as a real beautiful before she turns to 30's.

 

--Aging is not scary, but being muddleheaded is. A lot people are constantly looking and searching for something,even themselves don't know what that is. Try to believe in true love and kindness, you will start to enjoy happiness, soon.

 

--The real beauty needs time and patience.

This is wierd. I still don't know myself, still couldn't get my feeling right away, when I need to listen to my feeling, probably just cuz I think too much. constantly push myself to think. I thought always act and do things logically will direct me to the right place, at least, won't get lost. but forgot to feel, forgot to enjoy.

 

This remind me 7yrs ago, the first real decision I made in my life by myself, the feeling of setting myself free, listen to my feeling and follow what I really need.

and now again, I am falling to the life, the path I set for myself and people start to think I am this kinda person. I was pissed off and then turned to laughing at myself. Is this really what I want? what s the meaning to follow the life-plan? if I don't feel that s what I need or about to enjoy. I just forgot that life is not all about a plan it s more about FUN, about ENJOY, about HAPPINESS, about explore. If don't enjoy the path, what s the meaning of achieving sth!

 

No one's life belongs to themselves totally, just not possible to control it completely. You think your life is under control? hehe, maybe next day when u wake up, it is gone out of ur imagination already. It is the beauty of life, have to say,haha.

So nothing is more important than enjoying what u r doing right now. Everyone has own probablem, life is always like this, so just DON'T set more rules or put hard time on urself because life is hard enough, already. no rules, no more thinking... then life will back to SIMPLE.

Just live the life and enjoy. Follow ur feeling, follow ur heart,and time tells everything.

I am not a "Y" person, but don't know since when I became so curious and care about something so much!

Is life a legend or a story full of coincidences? propbably not. but at least, my life is definitely like a joke, completely. Since I found out this, I've been constantly asking why my fate makes the joke to me? and I even tried to make the joke to be true. and I never realized, that, if it meant to make fun of me from the beginning, how could my questions to be answered? Since any of  these questions will never get a true answer, the best solution is just let it go, forget all about it.

and start the next chapter which probably will be a joke again. well, what i can say....enjoy!

People say you are kind, you are too nice. What? too nice? Is there anything wrong with being "too kind/nice"?  Fine! now I finally realize how much u have to pay for kindness. 

Are Valentine's, roses, romance just kinda girls' stuffs? Can we really get a 100%Valentine's day in our lives?

telling the truth, if a girl receives a perfect valentine's day,she probably will remember you for her entire life, no matter what the result is and no matter how stupid u think that is.

 

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! SINGLES AND COUPLES!

Just came back from travel and lost my wallet in the most famous church in Montreal. Seriously, someone stole my wallet in a church! Even if the man doesn't believe in god, don't you be aware it is a church? man!

 

Maybe there are far less people who are trust worthy than I thought. what kinda people should be trusted? of course we can make the choice, but what comes afterwards? probably unlimited pain. then people dare to trust others.pathetic? yes, but you are protected.

 

if this is the case, then loneliness comes after. no trust, no hurts, no feeling, then ......that's not called "life".

love to trust someone, just....just so hard to do that, and hate the feeling of not trust the people I am dealing with. somehow cannot control my heart and make it trust everyone beside me. but i know....c'est la vie, have to experience something to make u feel alive and you can nver control.